Overflowing Feelings

Just wanting to scream and cry
In school but I can't
It just makes it more painful
To even bear

Why do I even hold back my tears?
Even though I've been at my limit for a while
But I still had the urge to stay strong
For the sake of myself and others

Sounds selfish, I know
Still I feel I need to be strong
For myself mostly
But also to be able to have confidence in myself

To support
Was all cared about
Until now
Until I found true friends

Filling me with Joy
Yet still feeling guilty
For the troubles and problems
I cause them

These feelings
I want them to stop
But I can't get back up without help
I need someone to be by my side

Maybe I'm too weak to even control my emotions anymore